SO true. I have literally driven myself CRAZY the last few days with worry. It needs to stop though. I won't even say it's stressing me out...because I don't think it is. That probably doesn't make sense. I just think all the time about what if something goes wrong? What if we have a miscarriage? Again, not stressed. I just think about this too much and spend too much time worrying.
Joe and I went and saw Heaven is for Real on Saturday. It was amaaazing (take Kleenex tho...I cried thru the WHOLE thing and I'm not even a big crier). It kind of made me feel better about all of this (spoiler alert) because in it, this little boy sees his sister who died in the womb in Heaven. I've always believed that babies who die go to Heaven, but seeing it like that and in that moment, it made me feel really at peace.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night and prayed for what felt like a long time. I put my hand on my belly and just prayed for the safety and development of our little baby. Joe doesn't seem to be too worried so I'm hoping some of his calmness rubs off on me :P
My aunt (who is the ultrasound tech at the OB/Gyn I go to) said I need to quit doing so much research on what could go wrong and enjoy this time. She said some things are out of our hands and this is one of those.
Anyway. Still very few people know. I told my brother and my sister (hopefully she can keep it quiet until Mothers day when we tell the rest of our families) and a couple of our friends.
Tomorrow I fly to Vegas for work. This is going to be a VERY uneventful Vegas trip...which is a GOOD thing :P
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