It's All in God's Hands

SO true. I have literally driven myself CRAZY the last few days with worry. It needs to stop though. I won't even say it's stressing me out...because I don't think it is. That probably doesn't make sense. I just think all the time about what if something goes wrong? What if we have a miscarriage? Again, not stressed. I just think about this too much and spend too much time worrying.

Joe and I went and saw Heaven is for Real on Saturday. It was amaaazing (take Kleenex tho...I cried thru the WHOLE thing and I'm not even a big crier). It kind of made me feel better about all of this (spoiler alert) because in it, this little boy sees his sister who died in the womb in Heaven. I've always believed that babies who die go to Heaven, but seeing it like that and in that moment, it made me feel really at peace.

I woke up in the middle of the night last night and prayed for what felt like a long time. I put my hand on my belly and just prayed for the safety and development of our little baby. Joe doesn't seem to be too worried so I'm hoping some of his calmness rubs off on me :P

My aunt (who is the ultrasound tech at the OB/Gyn I go to) said I need to quit doing so much research on what could go wrong and enjoy this time. She said some things are out of our hands and this is one of those.

Anyway. Still very few people know. I told my brother and my sister (hopefully she can keep it quiet until Mothers day when we tell the rest of our families) and a couple of our friends.

Tomorrow I fly to Vegas for work. This is going to be a VERY uneventful Vegas trip...which is a GOOD thing :P

We're Knocked Up!

Yeah so that ^^^ happened over the last couple days. Actually, those are just the ones I took this morning. I've taken more. I just wanted to be sure, ya know?! I figure, one test may be wrong, but like 4 or so? No way. Last night I tossed and turned until 6am rolled around and I could hardly stand waiting any longer! I jumped outa bed and took the prego tests. If I was a more patient person, I would have waited a few more days to test...but alas, I am not. Again tho, 4 tests aren't going to be wrong, right?

I told the hubby yesterday after taking one positive test. I got him a shirt that says "Man Behind the Bump" (actually, I got the shirt a couple weeks ago just in case hehe) so I handed him that and the positive test and we both cried and we hugged and we started dreaming about our little one. My husband, I'm pretty sure, is going to call him/her "JK" until we find out if we are having a boy or a girl. You get it? Joe...and Katie....JK?

Anyway, I've told a couple people. Our best friends in Chicago, Kyle and Elyse, were the first to know. They are about 10 weeks pregnant. How flippin' awesome is it that we can be prego buddies together? We are waiting until Mother's Day to do the big reveal to our parents :) I'm leaving for Vegas for work in a couple days...and that's the soonest we can get everyone together. When I say I'm excited, I just say "excited" because there is really no word that can truly decide how I feel about the big reveal! They are going to be ECSTATIC! :D

I am bound and determined to be as healthy and stay as fit as I possibly can throughout my pregnancy. It's totally possible. I look at all the work I've done to LOSE weight (over 55 pounds!) and I'm not going to let the "well, I'm pregnant" excuse become an issue. The plan is to stick with my paleo diet and add in some dairy. We shall see how it goes!

I'm going to do this question thing I found on another blog. It's probably going to be pretty boring and uneventful for a while...but still...I'm so excited!!! Seriously, this is all such a dream come true. I love this baby so much and I just found out about her/him! This child is going to be so loved. We are so, so ready for this chapter in our lives and are just so happy and...EXCITED!!! :D

How far along: Just over 4 weeks

Total weight gain: I'm at my lowest weight I've been at since I was 17. Guess that has to start changing. Going to be weird to switch from my "lose weight" mindset to a healthy "gain weight" mindset. It will be SO worth it tho.

Maternity clothes: None yet. I probably wont need them for a while.

Stretch Marks: I mean, I already had them on my stomach and thighs from all the weight I've lost. So nothing new. Yet.

Symptoms: I started getting cramps and lower back aches over the last few days. I kinda chalked it up to PMS. Did some research tho and a LOT of women experience cramping early in pregnancy due to implantation. Also got some NASTY cold sores in my mouth...I've never had a cold sore in my life! Apparently, again, it's an early sign of hormone changes. The cold sores are what made me decide to test early.

Food Cravings: None yet. Still eating mostly paleo

Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope

Sleep: Sleep is okay. Last night I was too anxious about taking more tests tho and literally got maybe 4 hours of sleep. Bedtime tonight cannot come soon enough.

Best moment this week: Obviously, finding out I'm pregnant! Also sharing the big news with my wonderful husband <3  

Miss anything? Really not doing anything differently. I will miss tuna tho. One thing I will NOT miss is cleaning the kitty litter! :P

Movement: We have QUITE some time before that comes around

Wedding Rings on or off? On. Actually, I can fit it on all my fingers...including my thumb :P

Mood: I'm on cloud 9. I don't think I could be moody even if I wanted to

Looking forward to most: Telling our parents in a little over 2 weeks.