It has been a couple weeks since I've posted. I said that I would be open and share, so I guess I will update everyone now :)
It's been a little rough. My depression has kinda sky rocketed so my psychiatrist upped my meds at least for the time being. I'm hoping that helps...because I'm ready to get out of this funk. I'm doing everything in my power to not let myself sink into too deep of a pit-meaning I'm trying to stay busy and make myself be around people. However, sometimes when I'm around people, I'm kinda irritable and don't talk a whole lot. I think it's better to be around people though even if I'm not talking much than letting myself sit at home and sulk on the couch.
Joe has been unbelievable...I seriously don't know what I would do without him. I think he doesn't know what to do all the time when I'm being a hot mess, so he does what he can. I feel bad for him :/ The best thing he does is just hold me when I'm not okay, and that right there is perfect.
I'm on day 4 of no bleeding...so I'm hoping that means it's over. About a week and a half ago it stopped for 3 days and came back and that SUCKED. SO, here's hoping it is gone for good. We are both super ready to try again and start a family. Even as sucky as this has been, it's been so nice to have Joe be so on board with getting pregnant. The first time, he wanted to, but wasn't as enthusiastic (I don't think most men are lol). But he is very ready to try again and I love it.
Really hoping that it happens sooner than later. I need to stop getting on my online miscarriage support boards...as seeing the horror stories of how people can't get pregnant after a miscarriage really freaks me out. Really, though, we are both trying to trust God with this. We know He is going to give us a child in His time.
